So... I've recently been pondering on something that just happened to come up with a friend of mine. We were talking about life and it's challenges and how sometimes, things are not very fun to go through and why we go through them. And then as we were talking, it was mentioned that our Savior had a point in His life where he was a broken person.
For some reason, this surprised me. I'd heard that before but I guess it never registered to me that our very own Savior was broken at one point in time. And that's when He asked the Father "Father, if it be thy will, remove this cup from me, nevertheless not my will, but thine be done." How horrible that must have felt for Him. To be there, suffering the sins of the world and feeling so broken, but knowing he has to go through that before the wrong can be right. I'm feeling eternally grateful that, not only has the Lord gone through what I'm going through right now, but he can help me get past it and he knows that I need to go through what I'm going through in order to grow in wisdom and knowledge.
I can't express how this makes me feel for it feels to strongly for me but... without my Savior I would be nothing. I'd be a person living life but to what end? I can't even describe how sad it makes me feel to think that if I wasn't born into a family who are the member's of the LDS church, and to think that I had no one I could personally relate to in how I feel. There are people out there I'm sure who feel quite similar but to feel the exact same thing as me? I can't believe that my Savior has that much love for me. He and the Father both know how I feel, and what I'm going through and can even read my thoughts to such an extent that it is discreetly distributed about them in blessings that I've recieved. And I am thoroughly amazed by how true this church is. And how much I want to cry with happiness when I think of my Savior and the sacrifice he faced for me. How personal that is. How.... how everything that I'm going through and will go through, my Savior knows exactly those feelings and thoughts and worries and wonderings and happenings that I truly am never alone.
I don't think that I've ever really felt alone. Not in a sense of divine power. Definitely not. No matter what it is that I go through, I know that my Savior is there just waiting for me to call upon Him. There are times when I feel as if I can't feel that amazing spirit. The spirit of the Lord that I've been gifted. And even when I can't feel the spirit, I know that my Savior is watching and listening to me. I, indeed, have questioned the church. It was a frightening thing but the more I read my scriptures and prayed, how much those quesitons left my head.
I feel grateful that I can read the Scriptures and feel the love of my Heavenly Father. Grateful that I can cry about the joy that I feel (even though I'm not a fan of crying). I am so grateful to know that I'm being taken care of. No matter where I go, or what kinds of bad or good decisions I make, the Lord is always watching and has a hand in every single thing I do. An influence upon my soul. I honestly don't know how I'd survive without the gift of the Holy Ghost. I don't know how people can do it. How they can live through life not knowing this feeling. And as time goes by, I'm grateful that I've got the opportunity to serve a mission. There are people there that I, Me, am supposed to teach that only I can really give them the influence to study more thoroughly this church. What an awesome feeling and to be able to know with such great certainty that they can find happiness within it, even when going through hard times, what a difference it will make in there lives. I'm grateful to know how close the Savior is to me. And that he's felt what I've felt and that I can let Him know without feeling ashamed because I've kept the secret or something like that. I'm grateful that He gives me courage and to be brave. And I'm so grateful that I've got the scriptures that I can rely upon. How wonderful they are. What a gift we've been given. These scriptures are like a lifeline to me. By reading my scriptures I can feel the power of the spirit coming upon me and pushin Satan away. Satan and his temptations that he tries to weild upon my heart. How grateful I am to know that I have the strenght to fight and to win. That my Savior is there right by my side and will never, EVER let me down. Even when I can't see what it is he's trying to do for me. And as much as I dislike not knowing what the purpose is for what I'm going through or whatnot, I'm grateful to know that there's a reason and not some dead end road I'm being led to.

And again, I'm so grateful that the Savior atoned for my sins. That I can read upon His words and take comfort in the fact that I'm not the only one who feels this kind of sorrow. That my Savior has felt the same thing and knows how I would handle a certain situation. How he can be by my side spiritually and lead me towards the path most rewarding and worth it for me personally. Such grattitude I feel.

Quickie

So... I'm just on here because I haven't written anything in 4 Months! :o holy moly! haha yeah good grief right? So I'm letting everyone who reads this that I've just signed up for something amazing. I've decided to Volunteer for the Big Brother's Big Sister's program! yay! lol plus got an application for Volunteering to help out animals and stuff. Might as well do something that I'm gonna have my profession in, right? Well, technically it's not quite the same thing but hey, it deals with animals :D So yeah. I'm excited. And I'm also excited for Jenny to come home! I haven't heard much from her and I'm delighted to get to see her again. Hoorah!

Perceptions

I can't help but notice the differences that people have of this world as of late. Not that it can't be helped for I'm living with a girl at the moment who's got HUGE opinions about it and her perceptions are definitely different.
Her and I see things so differently. Comparing things with each other, and if explained well, both sides are both good. She is an art major and she can look at art and see a hidden meaning in it. While I see some types of art and think "Why in the world would they ever want to put this in a museum?" but then again, the way I look at certain things in the world she has a hard time understanding how I see them that way.
On our way home from Oregon we were going through a desert because that's what the trip looked like on the way there and back. A yellowey, brownish look. Possibly some orange. Maybe a cactus here and there and as we were driving in the truck I kept thinking about how the Lord placed beauty on this earth in every aspect. Even in desert's there are animals and insects who thrive on that way of life. So if you're looking at a desert and only simply looking; all you will really see is something brown and ugly. But if you look deeper you can find something wonderful.
So I decided to try it that way. To see if I could find beauty within the uglyness. And, amazingly, I did. We were going over this bridge and as I looked down I saw red rock and further, in the middle of this gap there was a small river. With grass surrounding it all along the edges of each side and it was so... out there. So... different from the rest of the desert. It was beautiful! And I think of that and listen to other's and their ways of thinking about life and earth and think... how amazing it is that you can find that beauty anywhere. Even just looking at something with a different attitude changes the way it can look in your eyes.
It's also amazing to know that each person see's differently. They see color differently than other people. I don't know how people can't take joy in the outdoors when it's so beautiful! Though I suppose that IS just my perception... still.
Anyways yeah... I'm just marveling at the difference in perceptions people have about life and the things that the Lord has made and that men have made. It's all wonderous in it's own way.

Usage of Profanity

Hey all! I need everyone's help. I need to know everyone's views on the usage of profanity. like... examples as to why it's wrong to use, or what it does to you. It'll be very much appreciated! ^_^

~*~Clouds~*~

So... as of late I've been looking at the clouds and thinking about how beautiful they are. I marvel at how the look lately. I mean... half the day it's cloudy and rainy and then suddenly, later on it's completely blue! I don't remember the clouds moving around this quickly. It truly seems like the Second Coming is very near. Time seems to be moving so fast! It doesn't seem like we'll be able to accomplish what we wish for time is so short. But then again... we may be able to accomplish that and more considering the fact we don't know When the Second Coming is. But how exciting!

I look up at the clouds and there are times when I'm watching that I see how... such a Florescent white they are when in a certain slant of the sun. It's so beautiful! And then... right before your very eyes the clouds seperate and change and when they get so small they just... disappear. Right there. They're moving so quickly and it's just... awe inspiring. They look so lovely and amazing when looking towards the mountains. Seeing the way that they mold to the mountains, even though they're just passing through... I just absolutely love the mountains! As I watch them... the way they move, how they form, or disappear... it's further proof to me that the Lord exists. How in the world did any of these wondrous things happen if there was no Lord? or looking at the colors of the sky... who, beyond the Lord, would think to mold them together so perfectly that they make the sky look beautiful at certain parts of the day. Sunrise and Sunset.

Beautiful.

I figured out my spice

I am Basil!

You are quite popular and loved by post people.You have a mild temperament, but your style is definitely distinctive.You are sweet, attractive, and you often smell good.

Lovely Songs

So... I was thinking about this world and how hard it is, and how sometimes it feels like you just want to give up and don't want to try anymore well... I was thinking about that and how sometimes it's hard to lean on the Lord. And as I was thinking about this I heard this song last night on my way to a bonfire in Provo Canyon and I just love the word's to it Especially when it says "Don't Give Up, It's Just The Weight Of The World." and I was thinking... how true that is! We can't give up. It's only the weight of the world. Our Savior died for us, taking on the whole weight of the world and all it's burdens. He can take away all that pain because he's already taken it. We just need to let him. It's like the Savior is holding out his hands saying, pour all your burdens into them because I've taken them already. You don't need to keep holding on to them because I already have. So don't give up on everything because you feel like you can't keep going with all your trials. You are loved, and you've been saved by the Almight Lord. Keep going, and lean on Him along the way, for He will help thee cross the plains of your trials.

Here's the Song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ls7ila3srzI


You Are Loved (Don't Give Up)

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When your heart's heavy I
I will lift it for you

Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you I
I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you

Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up

Because you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside I
I'll be there to find you

Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you I
I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you

Everybody needs to be loved
Don't give up

Because...you are loved

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Everyone needs to be loved

You are loved

I love that song. And I find Josh Groban's Music to be absolutely beautiful. Especially that song. Because if you read that song; don't think of it in a man's point of view to a woman, but think of it from the Lord's point of view to every single person here in the world. No matter where they come from, or what aspect of life they have lived in or are living right this minute. (because usually people look at songs and think of them as love songs :P)